Cranky-D

Remeber that great job I got? Where I work at home, keep pretty much my own hours, all that happy horse-shit? It sounded too good to be true, really. Surely too good to continue.

Well, it was. After the company hired a total of three new people since I got there, they told me they couldn’t afford to hire me as a full-time employee. When my current contract expires on June 30, I’m history.

You can imagine how thrilled I am about all this. I HATE looking for work. Plus, whatever job I get now will probably require a commute, so my crappy car which I could’ve kept alive for years more by using it sparingly will now probably expire much sooner.

I’m quite annoyed by this development. Four weeks ago I was told I was going to be hired, and we just had to negotiate salary and stock options.

It’s a bit difficult to find my motivation now.

I’m in hurry up and wait mode.

I’m supposed to have a small database working so I can test the new code for our latest version of our product. I’m supposed to test this week because this coming Monday I’ll be flying to the client site to start doing Important Stuff directly related to a looming deadline. I cannot start doing the Important Stuff until I get the code sorted out on a small database. I also have some code of my own that I need to make sure is working.

There is no working db for me to use as of this moment. The person(s) who were supposed to have this working do not have it working. Therefore, I am still not testing anything. I also lack the knowledge to take things in my own hands.

I can see the danger already. Instead of having a cushion, some room to allow thinking and planning, I will have nothing. I will become the bottleneck.

I have resigned myself to the fact that I will not have any time this weekend to do anything other than work. Sleep may become optional.

On the plus side, I’m been full time for a month, and they’re now paying me enough so that I can pay all my bills, including the looming student loan that I must re-finance toot sweet. One must enjoy whatever positive developments there are.